Sitting around thinking about flowers
All I want is to live without someone else’s input. I keep repeating that in my head. Then it hits me that there are some things that I really miss about being in a relationship. Like how nice it is to receive flowers. I think flowers are sunshine you can hold and put in your hair. To me, giving someone flowers is the most simple gesture of pure love.
I love giving flowers. My ex-husband loved them too. We’d send them to each other on birthdays and anniversaries, getting more extravagant (and silly) each year. I remember him walking miles to deliver them to me on my birthday when the bus broke down. Or once, when he was out of town for a week, he had them sent to me every day at work.
I’m realizing that this is the first thing on my list. I’m 26 and I really just want flowers. Everyone wants someone to sweep them off their feet occasionally. For me, that feeling always fades too quickly. I think if after 2 or even 20 years, you can still go out and buy someone flowers just because you love them, then you have a real true kind of love. Maybe that’s it. I want the kind of love that doesn’t fade during hard times, it’s constant, in the background. I think that’s shown by doing those small gestures that you know makes the other person feel special.
I’m going to be single for a year. I haven’t been single for almost 8 years. I’m loving it. I just want to feel special too. And I guess a girl can’t have everything.
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